Sometimes.

Sometimes I wished my life could unfold like a drama. 

A bit of fun, a bit of luxury, a bit of pain, a bit of challenges, a bit of love and a bit of heartbreak. I can't help but to agree that my life is kind of boring and me, kind of lame and could do with a sledgehammer to my face. I'm such a douchebag that I can't even acknowledge the guy on the other side of my mirror as me. It doesn't take a lot to understand that this is terrible.

Drama always does some form of self-bashing to me. Somehow, they make me feel a little less awesome and that I probably, really should want to be in that drama as much as possible. Yeah, it all kind of makes sense now. It's the making of a good drama series.

Alright, let me do a little reality-assessment.

So, at least I'm not all negative. Sure I could do with a little self-improvement, but I have all the basics that I need and a bit of the advanced stuff to make my life feel better than a lot more people. I guess I'm not too bad after all and maybe I have to wait just a little longer for everything to set into place for the drama to really unfold.

Someone told me that the biggest pity in life goes to people who don't know how close they are to success before they give up. Well, that gives birth to two kinds of people who don't give up. The first kind of people are simply driven to find success by motivation, whether they eventually get it or not. The second kind of people, like me, are fueled to keep walking, out of fear that the next step might be success.

It pays to keep walking no matter what, because life is full of the unexpected and you never know who or what turns up where or when.