Week in and week out, week in and week out yet again. I think I've become so numb to army life, I don't even have a sense of life anymore. My concept of time gets so screwed up that minutes seem like hours and hours seem like minutes.

I think it's because I no longer have something to look forward to. When I still had dance lessons, I could strive to make it from week to week just for that 1 hour of crappy funny dancing. Dancing was when I could bare my heart and soul. Now that it's been almost a month and half since dancing lessons ended, there's a void I can't fill - not even with excessive gaming. I guess gaming is there just to pass time and keep my mind away from the void, but when gaming isn't around, that void eats into my heart.

It's painful, not having something to look forward to. How I wish a girl would randomly walk into my world and put her hand where my heart is to feel how empty and cold is it. How I wish I could get something to fill up the void that corrodes my existence. How I wish I had a burning hot passion for someone, something, somewhere that could scald me awake and tell me that perhaps, no, definitely that, I'm finally alive and breathing the same air you're breathing.
I'm no hero, no knight in shining armor, no saviour, no superstar and no big deal, but burst me out of my coma and I'll show you who I really am.